I pretty much don’t have any community I can openly discuss these sorts of topics with, in large part because I mean just look at Neuralink and who owns it.

I have been interested in the field because one of my dreams has been to give people the ability to see the world through their own eyes or to give them access to greater mobility. This doesn’t mean I am against wheelchair accessible hiking trails, no I love when people make it accessible. What I want is to give more ability to people.

There is nothing glamorous about suffering. I detest figures like Gandhi or Mother Theresa because they fetishize pain of others.

Take a look at this short: http://xhslink.com/o/4Z8kix5iqsf What do you see and how does it make you feel?

• Is it pity for someone else’s condition?
• is it admiration for their efforts despite the conditions?
• would you still feel impressed if you found out this person was able to walk, but feigned being in a wheelchair? (THIS IS A HYPOTHETICAL, the person in the video is NOT a fraud. As far as I know.)
• Why would someone fake being disabled? Probably for the sake of generating fame, which can be commodified and turned into Capital.

Disabled/Otherwise marginalized groups being fetishized under laissez-faire Capitalism has horrendous implications. Under such conditions it makes it so:

• When I have a desire to assist someone I’m immediately assumed to want to fix the person. Which is Eugenicist and wrong and immoral on every level. No debate about it.

And why wouldn’t they be scared? Disabled people historically have been put in concentration camps and continue to be put in those camps, continue to be tortured.

I myself have a neurological disability. I address it through expensive unaffordable privatized medication.

We are physical beings with a physical body, this includes our brains. Mine happens to be a little different, why would i not want to build a permanent solution to this problem? Nobody has the right to forcefully attempt to cure me, but nobody has the right to prevent me from trying to improve the life of myself either.

Just another reason for why I am anti-capitalist.

• In another world I would be developing cybernetics, together of several of mine comrades.

• In this world my comrades already died, after being gaslit by private care psychiatrists and I can barely make ends meet.

And nobody around me is interested in building mutual-aid networks. Why is it that the local anti-fascists advocate for accessibility and queer rights, but refuse to assist me?

I am fully capable of presenting a concrete case for why they should collaborate with me and why we need to establish mutual-aid networks, that provide people with their immediate needs (food, shelter, medicine etc.), with the goal of pushing for socialized healthcare that would enable access to people’s serving services.

What do you think I should do about it? Can anybody please direct me towards organizations that do international solidarity and could assist me come up with a plan of action? Or like back me up somehow… cause I’m completely alone and I don’t have any money, literally. All I have is the tools others let me use.

Like is there any organization that would be willing to work with me? I will literally walk 3000km if I have to. (don’t laugh) I am an experienced hiker I can do that. Don’t treat me as a joke.

My current plan has been to try to see if I can relocate to Asia, at least temporarily to see if I can make international ties no particular reason. I just really like kpop, you see, ifykyk. The only obstacle that really might get in my way is being trans and unable to change my legal papers. I don’t need to explain why being labeled as -male- might run me into issues when my body doesn’t match? But I will figure something out I guess.

Surely there has to be anyone out there who sees the potential in me. Even if I don’t see it myself.