• morto@piefed.socialEnglish
    5·
    19 hours ago

    As someone who can’t stand to look at my face and haven’t seen it for many years, this is a real nightmare

      • morto@piefed.socialEnglish
        2·
        17 hours ago

        I didn’t expect other people to relate with this. Looking at oneself is considered something so natural, that it’s really uncommon for someone not to do it, and it’s a struggle in many ways

        • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zoneEnglish
          2·
          17 hours ago

          It was a recurring subject during my therapy sessions: I avoid looking at my reflection, be it in a mirror, a puddle, a window, my smartphone. I’m still unsure whether it’s because of gender dysphoria, “simple” low self-esteem, self hatred or whatever, but it just makes me uncomfortable. I wish I could look at myself and feel: “I love this person”.

          • morto@piefed.socialEnglish
            2·
            12 hours ago

            I do the same. I used to try to understand it and fight it, but nothing helped and it has all been a mess. I ended up just avoiding it and living like that. Seems terrible, but made me feel better. I’m not the one having to suffer by looking at my face anyway, it’s the others around me, so I don’t care anymore. With time, I learned to preemptively avoid any reflective surface, so I very rarely get glimpses of me,and when I do, it’s never for long enough to actually form a mental image. I even learned to pass face id in banks without looking at the screen. There has been several years and I probably don’t even know how I look anymore, but I feel better like that. However, I recon it’s just avoidance, so I definitely don’t recommend doing what I do

            As fr the cause, I also don’t know. I might have some level of gender dysphoria, but I’m also unsure, and I didn’t find myself ugly or something like that, I just can’t stand looking at myself. It’s really hard to try to understand

  • over_clox@lemmy.world
    3·
    20 hours ago

    Uh, okay. I don’t usually fight to try to see my phone screen in direct sunlight anyways, but I hear ya.

    On a related note though, don’t leave your device out in direct sunlight. Just like frying ants with a magnifying glass, your camera sensor can and indeed will end up with permanently burnt pixels, plus the sunlight will overheat your device, and lithium batteries don’t exactly like that…

  • Epzillon@lemmy.world
    41·
    20 hours ago

    I feel like this is more of a “scrolling in the sunlight” thought than a “shower” thought