Thank you for your service! I hope you can rely on comrades to take some pressure off and maybe take a brake. There’s a whole book that’s been written about this: "Burnout - the emotional experience of political defeat" (Verso) by Hannah Proctor. It helps to read the concrete experiences and strategies of comrades who have gone through this. As long as the revolution hasn’t been victorious all over the world, political success always comes in waves and after every wave, reaction will roll back some of the wins. Accepting this from the get go should help. The revolutionary moment will only not pass once. Until then, we have to anticipate reaction and only commit what we can sustain long-term.