I’ve felt rancor and bitterness towards most of my surroundings for all of recent memory and have now realized that it’s starting to affect my relationship (im growing impatient, ready to fly off the handle, a little defensive) and i feel like im in some way broken or “unfit” for a relationship. Very important to mention that i forgot to take my meds for an extended period and now they are virtuslly useless bbecause im a dimwit and am unable to properly remind myself of my fairly important emotional stability pills; This lack of pharmaceutical support (all a byproduct of my own actions) i think also plays a very big role in my current situation.
How do i not lash out or ruin my relationship with my partner because of my general unhappiness and, for lack of a better term, hate for and towards everyone else around me
i think that self regulation as purported by the mainstream is ultimately just “let the 1% fuck you over cuz honor and coolness”, and should be called out and those which perpetuate it should have a talking to if they dont know any better, or hanged from their feet if they are purposefully passifying our populace.
I do think actual healthy emotional regulation exists, but the state wont be the one that will teach you about it. (healthy emotional regulation as in actually letting yourself feel shit instead of the whole “turn the other cheek, anger is a sin” bullshit the theocrats and imperialist scum try to convince us with.)