I apologize for not being able to elaborate further on that because the words that come to my mind refuse to form coherent sentences.
All I can say is that the question in the title has been running in my head straight for a month now. It can be one of those days, or I start to stagger under the weight of my mental luggage.
PS, I’m seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist if anyone wonders.
that makes a lot of sense now that you’ve explained it. it’s a shame that we’re all encouraged to know exactly what we want to do before we’ve really even grown up all the way. i’ve definitely changed tracks and been burned for it in the past, but it’s still worth it i think. and, it definitely feels bad to be belittled and invalidated but the most important validation comes from inside imo.
hope your situation gets better or at least moves towards resolution over time. it’s unlikely that you’ll feel stuck forever, for what it’s worth.
First, thank you for your kind words. That is one of the reasons for me to feel that way, but I still continue on my newfound path.