I apologize for not being able to elaborate further on that because the words that come to my mind refuse to form coherent sentences.
All I can say is that the question in the title has been running in my head straight for a month now. It can be one of those days, or I start to stagger under the weight of my mental luggage.
PS, I’m seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist if anyone wonders.


Thanks for your kind advice. I already have a small friend group I hang out with randomly, and I used to help organize comrades before I got brutalized. I’m pretty sure it will get better after my full recovery.