I’m doing 5g of mushrooms tomorrow in silent darkness for the first time. I have no idea what to expect as I’ve never done it this way, my last dose was 4.5g and I handled it really well and had a beautiful experience out in nature. Also, planning on vaping some DMT powder in the coming weeks and going on my first major trip for the first time.
Shrooms/psilocybin: Called and cussed out my parents, put all the shit my family talks about behind each others backs into a groupchat, changed my phone number, and quit drinking completely (12 pack nightly) now for 2.5 years total all within about 12h.
My #1 recommendation for anyone in a similar situation is that you are not allowed to have your phone or computer for 72h. A week if you can arrange a vacation. Watch videos on DVD / vhs if you can or read a book. Listen to music or predownload a podcast / audiobook. Go for walks. get a coloring book. Hopefully other people will add in some good analog activities. But do NOT contact the outside world at all for 72h.
It needed to be done but I could’ve done it with a LOT more grace if I’d waited.
Thought about reconnecting recently actually then I had this dream:
I was at a family reunion and mentioned the thing that my dead sibling did that left me with one of those early childhood harcoded fight or flight responses. Like it’s not existential; I’m not actually like afraid of just thinking about it but if it actually happens my body will just involuntarily freeze. Anyway in the dream my still living sibling responds by doing it to me “as a joke.”
I did not wind up reaching out. I think my body was trying to tell me something.