I am in the netherlands and have had professional help, but they couldn’t figure it out either and eventually we dropped the case with no further instructions.

I am, however, taking bupropion and that has helped somewhat and stimulants for my ADHD which help greatly for doing things even if my mind is not motivated.

I have had this problem for at least a decade though and maybe even since birth, so i am unsure if i can be helped.

Glad you were able to get out of that hole though.

Unfortunately i feel like i have some kind of derealization & depersonalization disorder and i just don’t feel rage, anger or much of any feeling at all.

My greatest struggle is that positive and negative feelings alike are not good enough motivators for anything. Simple things like going to the gym or having a hobby or even just seeing friends regularly, none of these give me motivation to do them and i merely do it because of logic and it being healthy or whatever.

You know the calculation your brain does automatically in order to figure out if something is worth doing? It is never worth for me. There were times where staring at a wall and hanging out with my friends who love me had the same exact emotional impact, with staring at the wall having significantly less of a cost.

That is also why i refuse to be described as a socialist, communist or be called comrade. I do not have any revolutionary spirit within me and can not be relied on for revolutionary work.

My lack of emotional response makes me, ironically, sad (no idea how that works tbh…) and i cannot help, but to covet the rage that you are struggling with.

I feel annoyed at homeless people asking me for something rather than sad or rage at their situation or even happy being able to help a little. I logically understand their situation and was even homless myself (not for years mind you) and i still only feel a little annoyance before i wrestle my brain into giving them some money or an old blanket. I never feel good afterwards though and have to fight my mind into not avoiding these people.

I try to be a good person, but have little motivation to be one. Luckily i have a similar lack of motivation to do bad things too, so i remain an apathetic grey blob.

horrible red pen video that is also about China

What do you mean? Why ws the video horrible? Because of the western marxist thing?

I use boost for lemmy. It is okay. Still a bit buggy, but that might actually be lemmy itself.

I use it because i found it of utmost importance that i can save comments and posts and have them in different lists. Makes it so much easier to go back to some topics and read up on them.

The operation taking longer is exactly because NATO got involved. Now Russia switched to a war of attrition and making sure they don’t take on too many losses while they are also going to collapse the Ukrinazi state and forcing the EU and their bloodthirsty liberals to eat the cost of having thrown ukrainian men into the meat grinder.

The tactics and equipment used and destroyed are already NATO. The lifes lost, however, are not.

“Only US” and a bunch of european countries and some asian one’s as well. Them not officially declaring war, does not mean they are not involved.

Nah, no worries 🤗

Deepseek also told me that the terms are the same. At most, they say “x-country police” and “people’s police” according to deepseek

all cops at the end of the day are bastards.

That only counts for capitalist countried though. The reason they are all bastards is because they protect capital. Chinese cops for example are comrades and the NKVD are too

It actually just stopped being an issue. It went away the same way it came; out of nowhere with no changes made by me 🤷‍♂️

Hell yeah, thank you!

I guess everyone’s heard of the blockbuster movies that have been coming out of China that have been the most popular recently, so i don’t need to mention those.

Always with this answer, goddamn you people! I have yet to hear of any Chinese media ever except “ne zha 2” and, like, 3 games lmao. Pls mention the big, impossible to miss movies❤️😇

It will be pretty horrible if you still need 5 days of work to buy food, but are only allowed 3 days of working.

Unless the wage gets adjusted as well, haven’t read the article yet.

You lost me at calling dark souls beautiful haha. Ngl, even dark souls 3 looks kinda trash for the time it released. You know how you remember shitty graphics better than they were because you played it as a kid? DS1 looks like how i remember PS2 graphics lmao.

I also never had a visibility issue with good lighting in games. No more than i do in real life i suppose.

I honestly do like more high fidelity graphics, but don’t care much about realism. The newest nintendo games as well as the latest God of War games are all beautiful even though they take on widely different art styles.

Realistic graphic mods can suck my dick tho’. That shit just looks like shit from ass 100% of the time and i can’t imagine someone actually playing with these mods besides putting them on to show your friends how cool it looks like before uninstallling it again.

Big fan of the checkpoint questions! Having questions pre-made after the lecture has always helped me in my learning as I immediately got feedback on if I understood the material properly. Especially if answers are provided too, but that might be harder.

Ah that’s sad. I wish I had an easier way of finding great discussions that happened years ago.

Thank you for your answer!