I can’t give you adviae related to mental health conditions or anything, but here are aome thoughts on anger in general.

Anger is an energetic feeling. What you need is an outlet for that anger, you need to do something. Because the source of your anger is political, it can be a great source of energy to do political work (done in a measured manner) like organizing, agitating, or reading tough-to-read theory. A healthy amount of exercise is also a great outlet and will objectively make you a more capable revolutionary because it imprives your health, energy, and mood.

Anger, like many emotions, can be a component of ruminating thoughts. You also need an outlet for those thoughts. That can be something like political writing related to an issue or other agitprop, journaling for yourself, art, or venting and dark humor with a comerade. However, if you are still stuck no matter what and feel like the thought isn’t progressing, don’t feed it by giving it undue attention.

Whenever I am uncertain about something regarding my political work, I try to think about Combat Liberalism by Mao, Mao’s principle of no right to speech without investigation, and the principles of unity, crit/self-crit, and democratic centralism. I find it often clears it up for me whether I should forge on ahead or change course and backtrack.

Best of luck, comerade!

It’s of course morally fine to pursue medical treatment with the means available to you. It’s not like you’re taking a job for Lockheed Martin for health insurance or something, right :P