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Cake day: November 11th, 2024

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  • i had a mini slut phase recently and everyone who touched my skin said it was really soft, like women who i thought had soft skin told me how soft my skin is. this is what finally pushed me to really look into Ehlers-Danlos and learn that i have it. having very soft skin without really trying is one of the features, but there are a lot more. it sounds to me like you might have it too. worth looking into.


  • yes people need friends. i need friends. ive tried the whole “get all your needs met by my romantic partner” thing. it works fine when times are good, but as soon as theres serious conflict or stress you need other people for support. your partner isnt perfect and neither are you, so in those bad times you share together you will see the worst of each other, and your needs wont be met. in time this breeds resentment and will lead to the end of the relationship. its a sad, lonely, empty existence going through life without friends you trust. you might not feel like it right now but eventually you will learn.






  • its happened a few times in my life so i dont have an exact quote. i always wanted to be a part of something bigger than myself, be on a team, make something with my friends, help someone with their dream, whatever. i was basically told “you have no skills and no ability to help, so you would only get in the way”. it hurt so much to be deliberately excluded by people who i thought were my friends, to be told im worthless to them, im incapable of helping them. after a few of those i cant even bring myself to offer anymore, and no one ever asks. part of me doesnt see the point of living if this is how people see me.


  • just going to offer an alternative perspective here. im a trans woman and lean towards being a lesbian. i found myself similarly obsessed with women to various degrees throughout my life pre transition. part of it was certainly hormonal, just being really horny and lonely, but another part was the dysphoria and intense gender envy i would get seeing attractive women just existing. i wanted to be them so badly, but i didn’t realize it because it went along with my sexual desire so often. things got better when i was in a relationship but it never really stopped. nothing i did seemed to resolve those feelings.

    a couple years ago i realized im trans and a bit after started hormonal transition. the sexual obsession stopped pretty much immediately and i felt much better about my attraction to women. it feels much healthier and less insistent now. part of that was the temporary drop in my libido, but girl horny feels so different and just better to me.

    i see a lot of myself in how you describe your feelings, so i figured id mention the possibility that you could be trans too. no one can tell you whether you are or not but you, so it might be worth exploring, just to see.


  • inventing a new language is almost never the right solution. there was a guy at my last job who tried to do this pretty much every time he ran into a problem with some shitty legacy software he had to work with. rather than take the time to fix it to do what he needed, he took ten times longer to slap another layer of custom bullshit on top of it. ultimately it came down to him being a really shitty engineer too afraid to change existing code, too lazy to do his due diligence, just clever enough to implement a shitty workaround, but not clever enough to realize how shitty it was. everything he made barely worked, was way overcomplicated, and no one else even wanted to try to learn his arcane bullshit syntax.