Maybe each queen has its own personal hive personality

So my suicidal depression boils down to just programming to you fucking imbeciles?

I ain’t programmed for shit, much less what you’re accusing me of

Holy hell

To be completely honest with you I don’t know how to deal with the non-phantom one, I just grit my teeth and ride it out (lol)

The Phantom Menace now rings so differently though

You one upped it

I’m now expecting to be tagged as cringe butthole response

Please don’t let me down

This made me physically uncomfortable in a way I never knew possible

I’m other news, apparently the cringe butthole response can really hurt?

I’m in it, last relationship was 17 years or so ago

I mean it ain’t all bad. So long as you don’t mind the actual loneliness, the physical touch gets easy to forget.

But I dunno if I’d recommend this to anyone tbh

Oh edit because I didn’t address your question. No it doesn’t go away, but it gets easier to ignore over time. Also I’m on 1500mg oh lithium so that may impact things.

I’m the asshole that likes a fine, precariously balanced mix of PORQUE NO LOS DOS

Idk I’m a shit person and I have a great support network. Honestly they’re the only reason I haven’t killed myself yet.

I think there’s a thin line between monster and hero. Like most human behaviors, I think the divide is much smaller than we might like to think.

Personally, I think we just have weird brains that tend to want to explain everything, even if it there may not be one. And we like to fill in those gaps with imagination, rather than accept ignorance. I forget the name of this scientific fallacy.

Anyways nice showerthought

I learned about this place through a phone call with a very nice Costco rep a little while ago lmao

Super cool picture! Wish I could visit with my cats

Haha, to be honest I’ve tried pretty much everything I could find in the past three years. My therapist has gone from recommending lifestyle changes to (literally his last suggestion) ‘find a girlfriend’* lmao

Yeah I gotta change therapists. But yeah I’ve tried em all pretty much. My psychiatrist suggested electroshock last time. So I may use that to go out hahahahahaha

But yeah.

Thanks. I mean I’ll keep trying until I can’t. I haven’t given up yet.

Appreciate you for your support

I think this may be hit or miss. I’m in therapy, but the effects are minimal. Then again, I may just be ‘too sick’. I don’t know.

I think people are trying, and that’s great. But I know I’m losing my battle. It’s just matter of time. Nothing I do changes this.

Just me though. Good luck to y’all, the world sucks right now.

Yeah, I have severe (suicidal) depression and exercise doesn’t do shit for me. Sometimes it makes things worse even.

The meds have never worked lol