Narri N.

BPD with A(u)DHD traits? That’s me! But then again – for women especially, though I was assigned male at birth – BPD is criminally overdiagnosed when the correct assessment should be neurodivergence. Because it’s easier for the doctor to call the woman “hysterical” than to actually address everything wrong with modern medicine, especially psychiatry, especially especially when it comes to women’s health.

DBT tended to gravitate towards a position of “this is how your brain is wrong, and here’s how you have to fix yourself” when, for me as a highly sensitive and emotional person, the distress the world made me feel as I grew older (my first symptoms of depression being from when I was like maybe 14?) is completely jutified and not fixable with shit-ass fucking SNRIs and other fucking poisons. Also I’m still salty with Finland’s national healthcare for fucking up my functioning therapy regiment back in the day, after which the state disagreed with both me and my doctor on my continued need of rehabilitation and told me to get a fucking job, bum.

That being said, some of the individual parts of DBT have helped me with my anxieties and tendencies of doomerism. https://dbt.tools/ seems like a nice, clean interface. Also the concept of dialectics helped with the coming class consciousness and diamat, so there’s that at least.

I used to cope with drugs and alcohol… Nowadays I just try to limit my intake of both (we just toke, and even that occasionally makes my emotional dysregulation flare up). Some days I just flat-out refuse to engage with the outside world if there’s too much happening. I’ve been out of most bourgeois social media for over a year now, mainly just lemmy for news/interaction and Youtube for slop. I also use .worlders and other lib/fash intance users to lash out, because I’d rather hurl abuse at pixels on my screen than actual people irl which I have been guilty of before. Though even that leaves me drained and my heart rate spiking, so I try to limit that also.

It ain’t easy out here. Good luck.

In the grim dark of the far early 21st century, there is only war.

Coca-cola, sometimes war

It’s good that people more broadly, especially in the imperial core, are starting to question the “truths” about the world and its ways they are taught. But I’m annoyed with the general usage of these terms like “techno-feudalism”, when capitalism and especially imperialism would work better, wouldn’t it? Everything must serve the capital, after all, and the internet in general - being probably the most significant invention in human history after using fire or something and having been developed to this point and made available globally in an astoundingly short amount of time - is poised perfectly for everyone to witness its decline under imperialism. So using “techno-feudalism” for this is understandable, but in the end it’s just the most recent and visible symptom of capitalism in general.

top right kinda looking like henry cavill to me ngl