I not only won the genetic lottery in terms of being in the top 99th percentile of humanity for almost all metrics one could use physically or mentally, I have also become a jack of all trades, and a master of a few.

I did lose the lottery by “picking up” ADD, and ODD upon character creation. That shit hasn’t made anything easy.

I can actually, and I mean like actually, rock a pair of circle lens sunglasses

I can cook better than at least half the people I know (and im being humble). I can cook nearly anything, with the capability to pull complex recipies off in the first go. My only limitations are ingredient availablity.

some people are bakers, some cooks. Im both. Im not great at cake decorating though, but it’ll taste great at least

My mother in law said I’m a really good dad. Like not even on father’s day, just like randomly once.

• I make a great vegan ice cream that is loved by many non-vegans.
• I beat depression and anxiety.
• I have a fun job that pays well and I’m good at it.

Im actually really happy with me personally lately. I still have a lot in life that could be better, but im alive, healthy, and living as my truest self. Everything else will come eventually. I recently started planning for my future for the first time in my life. Its weird. I never thought id live past 25, let alone want to.

I’m incredibly humble.

The horrors persist, but so do I.

No.

I’m always a little surprised when I look into the population MMR distribution for games I play a lot. I’m often in like the top 5% or better in the kind of games I play a lot. But… I suck at them. I don’t feel like I know what I’m doing and when I look at streamers who are actually good at the game, it’s not like they’re just a more refined version of me, it’s like they’re playing a different game.

So I like to describe myself as being “the top of the trash heap.”

Last week I was told that my dog’s trainer said I was the best client she’s ever worked with. The man that works at the front desk said he randomly asked her one day who the best client she’s worked with was and apparently with zero hesitation she said my name. I’m quite proud of that, because I worked really hard when I had my dog in training to make sure I was doing everything I could to make it, and us, successful. This trainer has worked with thousands of dogs and owners over the years so to have the distinction of being her best client is quite a pleasant surprise. I was determined to turn my crazy excitable COVID puppy into a well behaved dog I could take anywhere, and we succeeded. It was a lot of work, but worth it, and I’m proud of both the results, and the fact that apparently our trainer was impressed too. ☺️

I wanted to learn hardware design by designing a basic risc-v processor, ben eater style, kind of like a 1970s minicomputer, with expansion slots for new isa extensions and CSRs. But obviously using real breadboards for experimentation would be too slow when designing a 32 bit processor. I had never touched an hdl before.

So I sat down and started writing my own simulator and netlist generation dsl from scratch. It only works at the gate level, no behavioral synthesis, but flexible enough to write components modelling, for example, 74 series chips. It does vhdl-like delta cycle simulation using 8-valued logic, but without vhdl’s signal forwarding footgun.

I then implemented an rv32i processor with full m-mode support, and a risc-v emulator in rom to trap and silently emulate any missing extension instructions. When a new expansion board is plugged in, those instructions are simply not trapped and are accelerated in hardware.

I then learned just enough systemverilog to faithfully transliterate the generated netlist into structural verilog, and it actually synthesized and worked perfectly on an fpga.

I am now in the process of very slowly designing boards to hopefully one day manage to build the whole thing out of discrete 74hc series logic

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My body is a machine that turns Vietnamese supermarkets into Mexican food for my lovely wife. I do not feel pain, or remorse, or pity, & I cannot be stopped unless I am killed.

When I do have the energy, I’m a pretty good cook. Also I’m managing to grow things outside. Not like. Well. But they went from seeds to fruit which is the only thing I really wanted.