I was sleeping in the middle of the night until I woke up overheating and my intrusive thoughts rushing through my mind and doing things like:
- Saying Its the reason I love music and thats why its important.
- I should push a long thick needle in through my eye socket, impale my brain, and end my life. *The only way to be happy is to kill myself
- I will die suffering under capitalism
- gaslighting me into thinking I don’t like music.
- something about bananas
- I will never be happy
- etc.
They were so fast and rapid I couldn’t even counter act the claims. Right now my brain mellowed out and the intrusive thoughts are more easier to fight now. And I am feeling like im in an alternate reality
Hey friend, I’m sorry there haven’t been any responses. It’s not easy to know what to say when someone’s having a tough time, but I know people here feel sympathetic.
I try to remember that intrusive thoughts aren’t things I’m consciouly thinking, and don’t have any bearing on me as a person. It’s just stuff that happens in my brain. Idk if that’s useful, but I wish you well.
hi came here late from your other post! sorry friend. give me a minute to collect my thoughts, how are you feeling right now? better?
My intrusive thoughts aren’t as intense as they were that day, but they are still here unfortunately
alright, that’s good to know. well, i don’t know what consolation i can offer you but that’s really overwhelming and i’m sorry it’s still lingering in your mind. when you’re being overwhelmed like this, what helps more, trying to rationally overcome or dismantle the arguments or just trying to placate yourself via distraction or some sort of other balm? sorry again my responses are late :(
